Today I decided that I had just had it. This cold is kicking my butt and I just didn't have the energy to get up and doing anything today. So before Marc went into work I called the kids up and put Nik in charge. They had some chores to do and then they got watch the Avatar, the last air bender series. Which they have been doing most of the day with minimal fighting.
This is a first for me. To just stay in bed and let the children do what needed to be done. I was just so exhausted that I didn't have the energy to do more. It has been good to let go of some control and trust my children to do the best they can. And they have been doing a really good job. Even Alex.
I find that it is hard to get out of the ruts. Those ruts that slowly become deeper and deeper. Then you realize that they are so deep that you can't even crawl yourself out. That is how I feel at times with the house and the day to day of living. I do good for a time, then I get so tired and worn that I don't know where to start in order to keep my head above water.
I know that my cold is playing a large part in my melancholy at the moment. I will get better. I just need more sleep.