Today has been rough. Through out my life I have struggled with depression, but over the last few years not nearly as much. Today it hit like one of the waves of the sea. There has been a gentle lapping of this depression for a bit now but today I got hit hard. The knocked off my feet, drowning in it kind. I didn't want to do anything. Just sit or sleep. I get so frustrated when Marc asks me what I want to do or what I have planned because I just don't know. How am I supposed to figure out what to do? I can see what needs to be done but I just don't care. I am frustrated with my blog design. They have done a new thing and now I am going to have to learn it all again to get it back to were I want it. But this will suffice for now. I am prayerful that tomorrow will be better. I plan on taking the kids hiking. Finally found the map for the foothills trails. I am also hopeful that the pool will open like planned. I am tired of my walls. I am tired of Marc not having a job. I am tired of myself. I know it will be better and this is mostly the depression talking but some days I just can't get past it. Tomorrow will be soon enough to deal with the world.